Finally went and met my "niece" this weekend!

You know it's HOT when...

Ice cream feels like just as much a necessity as air and water!

I'm all grown up

Think I'm going to start looking into buying a house. I want that $8000 for first-time home-buyers in 2009!

Miscellaneous stuff...

It's funnny... when I just typed that word "miscellaneous", I literally had to think out loud, "miss cell came down the lane, oh, she's coming to see us." I know, sounds totally crazy unless you were taught to spell it that way like I was. Funny what things stick in your head!!

Anyways, I had a great little three-way call with my bro and sis the other night. It was fun. Hi guys, Have fun in Newfoundland!!

I didn't have any internet for the last 24 hours. I thought I was gonna go crazy! No blogging, facebooking, myspacing, or twittering! What is one to do? Ha ha.

So, I got ready early for work today, and decided to go by Starbucks. Well, I'm in the drive-through line, and this truck is backing out and totally crashes into me. She never even looked behind her!! So, I park the car, and get out (because as you know, if you know me at all, I am very familiar with the car accident scene... I could write a book, but that's something for another day). Anyways, this moron in the red truck looks around and then guns it and takes off. My eagle eyes did catch the lisence plate as she was speeding away (maybe I did learn something from my stupid cop ex-boyfriend). So, I was gonna file a police report, but there wasn't even a dent or scratch on my car, so I didn't bother. I still wish she wouldn't get away with a hit and run though!! How rude!!

Big things happening at work today. I submitted a resignation letter of sorts, and they don't want to lose me, so I get to be some kind of supervisor and get a raise. About time!! Hope no one from work reads this, because that is still supposed to be on the DL. So, keep it quiet, people!!

This weekend is my birthday, next weekend, I go to Fort Worth to see my friend and meet her 5-month old baby, and the weekend after that my mom is coming to visit me for the first time in three years!! So, it's gonna be busy for a while. Holla at your girl!! Peace.

But on the other hand...

I'm a good listener.
I genuinely care about other people's feelings.
I'm careful not to intentionally hurt others.
I see the good in almost everyone.
I try to focus on friends' strengths and minimize weaknesses.
I am loyal and consistent.
and I make good chocolate chip cookies!

So, its not all bad news. =)

Confession

I am a selfish friend.
I am terrible at loving other people.
I let my past control me.
I stay defensive and guarded.
I am not good at relationships.
I let the wrong things affect me emotionally.
I am not open or receptive to people who love me.
I choose to trust people that I know will hurt me.
I seem to have an appetite for mental self-destruction.

Comfortability

Is it really all that? Every life has patterns. We each tend to find a set of patterns that is comfortable for us, and fall into their easy routines. We are never really 100% satisfied with these patterns. Most of us acknowledge that we really could do better, but then, its comfortable, so why rock the boat?

So when a title wave comes along and rocks our boat for us, we have no choice but to step out of our comfortable patterns for a while. We are forced into new, unchartered territories and compelled to make decisions on how to face them. Not many enjoy this, or thrive on the opportunities to feel uncomfortable, yet coming through on the other end, we usually find that the experience was beneficial, positive, or character-building in some way.

Then, once everything has calmed back down, WHY do we settle back into our former, mediocre patterns? Why do we insist on throwing our valuable life-lesson out once the disturbance is gone? Maybe settling down into normalcy is not a good answer. Maybe routine, comfortable patterns do more to hurt than to help. Do we want constant turbulence? Well, no. So why can't we listen and learn when things are calm? Why is it that we need such a big storm in order to reevaluate or lives?

Could there be such a thing as a comfortable, routine pattern that is non-complacent? Comfortablility that is in no way a compromise? How can we find a place in life that fulfils the basic human needs of security and groundedness without becoming lazy and cowardly towards new ideas, movements, situations, people, tragedies, opportunities, etc.

Is there a balance? If so, how do I maintain a life within those bounds? Something to think about...