Hunting!

Axis buck in velvet! (I shot him from the back of a pick-up truck, going down the road!)

8-point whitetail (I shot this one while doing the belly crawl on the ground, b/c I was scared of the mouse that was in the blind!)

My au-dad.

And yes, I field-dressed every one of my kills myself!! Blood up to the elbows. You guys would've been proud of me!

Rest in Peace

Well, Heaven sure is a much brighter place as of this morning. I'm glad my aunt is there in her new body with no more cancer or suffering! I'm sure God is happy to have her home.

At least one thing hasn't changed...

Yep, I still love Starbucks. Made myself double-check this weekend, just to be sure. The peppermint mocha they have around the holidays is SSOOOOO good. That's all.

Been Missin' It

Yeah, it just hit me the other day like a ton of bricks that I miss blogging! Just being able to sit down and express whatever I'm feeling and put it out there to get it off of my chest. It's really an amazing thing. If I just want to be stupid, silly, philosophical, or whatever, I can be--an people actually read it--that's the most amazing part! Yep, I truly miss this blogger world. I think I need it right now. Lot of feelings going on inside of this head of mine! You'll be hearing from me more regularly, I have a feeling....

Pics!

Before You Say Goodbye

Dedicated to my Great-Aunt, Barbara Wilcox, who today was given 10 days left of life here on this earth.

One more game of skip-bo,
Just one more chocolate pie;
One more loving lecture
Before you say goodbye.

A walk to the springs,
An morning on the porch,
Hot soup in on the stove--
These mem'ries will be my torch.

You've touched so many lives;
Taught so much by your smile.
It's time for you to rest
As you cross that final mile.

Taking pictures on the steps,
Sending cards in the mail--
I don't know how you did it,
Staying strong, while so frail.

You did so much for others,
Saw the good through all the bad.
You're truly my life's hero,
So just let my heart be sad.

I'll see you soon over there.
We'll walk and talk and laugh.
You're in a better place now,
So don't blame me if I ask--

One more hug and cheery smile,
Just one more twinkle in your eye;
One more reassuring touch
Before you say goodbye.

Happy 4th!

Hey... hope everyone enjoys their 4th of July. I miss my family!!! Well, eat some extra BBQ, fried chicken, apple pie, whatever you have for me! And I hope everyone gets to go see some fireworks. I might try to go out to the air force base to watch them if I can find someone to drag along w/ me!

Enjoy your celebrations, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AMERICA!

The Higher Plane of Life

What is this I'm feeling?

Why are you dealing

Losing hands and stealing

My stability? I'm kneeling

With the acknowledgement

That the procurement

Of rest is now obscurement.

No lasting establishment

Of peace leaves me lacking

Words to end my slacking

And silence. I've been packing

Down all emotions and stacking

Daily duties of life on top.

But it's time all that stopped;

Time to harvest the crop

That's ready to drop

From exhaustion

And too much caution.

My only option

Will soon be crossing

To a place of no return--

Where it's crash and burn.

Will I ever learn

That while I may yearn

For certain situations,

Life's not on vacation?

And unrealistic infatuations

Only steal my dedication

From the truly valuable,

Seemingly unattainable,

But always rewardable

Higher plane of life.

How do I do this again??

Wow... I forgot how to even sign in to Blogger... Yeah, it's been a while. I thought that just not posting at all would be better than just posting randomly once a month or so, but one of my wonderful readers does not seem to agree.

Okay, so.... I have moved. I LOVE my new apartment--lots more space, a big, nice kitchen, a lovely 3rd floor patio/balcony (that I utilize very often!), and a much newer, prettier and safer place is now my home. Cinnamon has given me her approval as well--She loves to hang out on the balcony and sun bathe.

Life is good. I've been getting more involved in my church--with the music and the children ministries. It's a lot of fun; I really love it. Also babysitting for the doctors I work for has practicaly become a full-time second job. I'm not complaining though-the extra income is extremely helpful. I've also been traveling over to the ranch a lot any Saturday mornings that I have free to help my great uncle and aunt out. I've been building deer blinds, painting, hunting fishing, cleaning, cooking, riding horses, four-wheeling--it's a lot of hard work, but it's fun and it's great to be able to help them out. My great aunt just underwent her 61st chemo treatment and is in her 6th year of fighting cancer. The downhill stage is really starting to escalade, so keep her in your prayers.

The only negative part of my life right now is my job. I'm just not happy with what's going on. I'm debating right now over switching positions into a new department w/ a new boss, or looking for a completely new job. So, until then, hopefully I don't go postal on anyone! ha ha.

Happy Mother's Day to all you wonderful moms out there!

I think maybe I'll do a little poetry soon. It's been quite a long time since I wrote anything. We'll see if I get inspired.

I know, I know

I really need to quit promising I'm going to be more regular at this, because obviously it still isn't happening. It's just hard to find the time now that I'm not allowed to play at work! Imagine that!

Anyways, things have been crazy. I got "KILL" threats spraypainted all over my Jeep a week ago, so that was not fun. Now, I'm in the process of looking for a nicer, safer place to live. I found some apartments I LOVE, but it may require a little part-time job or something. The babysitting has slowed down a lot, so that extra money's not so steady anymore.

More that likely I'm going to switch positions from medical billing to surgical coordinator in the summer. I'm excited--I think I will love that a lot more.

Also been toying with the idea of getting into medical school--really big committment though, so not so sure.

I've gotten more involved in my church here. They have me playing the keyboard now and helping in the nursery. It's fun.

What's with the guys in Texas? Everyone single one that has asked me out so far, I found out later they had a girlfriend. Whassup w/ that?

Anyways, I still love it here. It's getting really beautiful and warm. I'll be taking lots of trips up to the ranch to hunt and work on my tan!

I miss football.

Sorry this is so boring, just wanted to throw a quick update out there!

Sensitivity... good or bad?

I've been thinking about sensitivity as a trait in your "significant other", if I may use that term without sounding too liberal. Desirable or non-desirable?

This is what I've come down to. I think if he is more sensitive to the needs, wants, feelings of others (including mine) than he is to his own needs/wants/feelings--that would create a good balance. On the same note, I would not want him SO unsensitive to his own feelings that he didn't even know what they were, or how to express and communicate them . And, I would not want him SO sensitive to the needs of others that he can't say no or discern when it is no longer helpful to help (a big problem of my own, actually).

Anyways, enough of that.

I shot my first deer last weekend. It was a lot of fun. Perfect heart shot! And we won't talk about the gutting and stringing up... cool? cool!

I also had a very rude awakening to the art of horseback riding--bareback. I'm not so sure if I am "de-sensitized enough to my own feelings" to share that story just yet. =)

Wow... time flies

I signed on to blogger and noticed I completely missed the whole month of December! Wow... well, a lot has been going on. I trust everyone had wonderful holidays with their family and friends. My Christmas was definitely very different this year. I stayed here in Texas, so wasn't around any immediate family, but did have a couple relatives to hang out with for a little while.

Well, this guy Jason who was supposedly madly in love with me and wanted to get married when I moved down here is completely out of the picture now. Good thing he was only a little part of the reason for my move! But I've been making lots of new friends and having a good time. Yeah, it was a little disappointing, but God gives grace, ya' deal with it, and move on, right?

Anyhow, a week before Christmas (without going into much detail), I had a little incident that set me back pretty good. But I managed to pull some overtime (3 fourteen hour days in a row was not fun--don't do it unless you have to!!) and got plenty of babysitting jobs from the doctors I work for, along with the help of some generous people, managed to keep on track.

So I rang in the new year...... babysitting. Yeah, I know---no fun, but that's alright. I guess everyone's already made (and possibly broken!) their new years' resolutions. I kept it simple this year--cutting out soda/coke/pop/whatever you call it, and cutting down on sweets. Yeah, little miss dedicated gym girl that I was hasn't been to the gym since I moved, and my bad eating habits are catching up with me. gotta get that under control!

I haven't had time to do any writing lately, but I kinda miss it, and might try to take a stab at it again soon.

Okay, for all the sports losses and victories and stupid mistakes I have missed talking about, here's my conclusion: Congratulations to South Carolina for finally winning a bowl game! you guys rock! Texas Longhorns get a thumbs up for barely winning a bowl game. Hope your season is a little better next year though guys. Colt McCoy--you're a pretty cool dude. And the Cowboys, my sad, sad Cowboys..... WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, ROMO? Ever since you starting dating Miss American Idol Carrie Underwood, you completely lost your game!! Get your head right, dude! okay, too late now--you already dashed any chances of a championship. All I know is, for next year, you need to learn to put your game face on and focus and forget about your pretty little country blonde for a few hours, okay? And T.O.--it ain't all about you, and that's all I have to say about that.

I feel better now. The rodeo's coming to town in a few weeks. I think I'll go experience a good ole Texas-style rodeo. Should be fun, right? Do I have to get me some tight Wranglers, a bit ole hat, a flashy belt-buckle, and some cowboy boots to go to this? Some of my fellow Texans help me out here? If I don't have all that git-up on, will everyone be snubbing there noses and making mean "foreigner" jokes? Just wondering.

Well, my internet is officially fixed, so hopefully I'll be more regular on here. Happy New Year everyone!