The Darkness

Questions fill my head these days.
I doubt the directions of my own ways.
It's not that I'm asking "Why?";
I don't sit around and cry.
No, it's this spider web of confusion
That has caused such disillusion
Of entanglement in my senseless thoughts.
I'm left focusing on fragments and dots
While the complete picture
Fades

into the

darkness.

Darkness that comes from unmet hopes

As my disappointed heart still gropes

For answers to what is going on;

What picture is being drawn

On the canvas of my life?

I constantly go through such strife

Within, just hoping to understand

Where I'm meant to lend a helping hand.

Or has that ideal become mere fantasy

Swallowed

by the

darkness?

I've remained still for quite some time,

Listening for answers Divine

Of where I am so grossly failing.

It seems as though I am trailing

So far behind the rest.

When comes the end of this test?

Others' joy has been my pain;

Their sunshine is my rain.

So my heart closes and hides

Away

in the

darkness.

Yet the darkness brings no comfort sweet;

It's merely a temporary retreat

For a heart so full of tears.

There's no solution in hiding for years.

Confusion is dispelled and answers found

Only when Light and Love abound.

Some hurts are needed to really appreciate love.

So I'll take the risk with help from above.

And hear my answers with a step

Out

of the

darkness.