How do I do this again??

Wow... I forgot how to even sign in to Blogger... Yeah, it's been a while. I thought that just not posting at all would be better than just posting randomly once a month or so, but one of my wonderful readers does not seem to agree.

Okay, so.... I have moved. I LOVE my new apartment--lots more space, a big, nice kitchen, a lovely 3rd floor patio/balcony (that I utilize very often!), and a much newer, prettier and safer place is now my home. Cinnamon has given me her approval as well--She loves to hang out on the balcony and sun bathe.

Life is good. I've been getting more involved in my church--with the music and the children ministries. It's a lot of fun; I really love it. Also babysitting for the doctors I work for has practicaly become a full-time second job. I'm not complaining though-the extra income is extremely helpful. I've also been traveling over to the ranch a lot any Saturday mornings that I have free to help my great uncle and aunt out. I've been building deer blinds, painting, hunting fishing, cleaning, cooking, riding horses, four-wheeling--it's a lot of hard work, but it's fun and it's great to be able to help them out. My great aunt just underwent her 61st chemo treatment and is in her 6th year of fighting cancer. The downhill stage is really starting to escalade, so keep her in your prayers.

The only negative part of my life right now is my job. I'm just not happy with what's going on. I'm debating right now over switching positions into a new department w/ a new boss, or looking for a completely new job. So, until then, hopefully I don't go postal on anyone! ha ha.

Happy Mother's Day to all you wonderful moms out there!

I think maybe I'll do a little poetry soon. It's been quite a long time since I wrote anything. We'll see if I get inspired.

I know, I know

I really need to quit promising I'm going to be more regular at this, because obviously it still isn't happening. It's just hard to find the time now that I'm not allowed to play at work! Imagine that!

Anyways, things have been crazy. I got "KILL" threats spraypainted all over my Jeep a week ago, so that was not fun. Now, I'm in the process of looking for a nicer, safer place to live. I found some apartments I LOVE, but it may require a little part-time job or something. The babysitting has slowed down a lot, so that extra money's not so steady anymore.

More that likely I'm going to switch positions from medical billing to surgical coordinator in the summer. I'm excited--I think I will love that a lot more.

Also been toying with the idea of getting into medical school--really big committment though, so not so sure.

I've gotten more involved in my church here. They have me playing the keyboard now and helping in the nursery. It's fun.

What's with the guys in Texas? Everyone single one that has asked me out so far, I found out later they had a girlfriend. Whassup w/ that?

Anyways, I still love it here. It's getting really beautiful and warm. I'll be taking lots of trips up to the ranch to hunt and work on my tan!

I miss football.

Sorry this is so boring, just wanted to throw a quick update out there!

Sensitivity... good or bad?

I've been thinking about sensitivity as a trait in your "significant other", if I may use that term without sounding too liberal. Desirable or non-desirable?

This is what I've come down to. I think if he is more sensitive to the needs, wants, feelings of others (including mine) than he is to his own needs/wants/feelings--that would create a good balance. On the same note, I would not want him SO unsensitive to his own feelings that he didn't even know what they were, or how to express and communicate them . And, I would not want him SO sensitive to the needs of others that he can't say no or discern when it is no longer helpful to help (a big problem of my own, actually).

Anyways, enough of that.

I shot my first deer last weekend. It was a lot of fun. Perfect heart shot! And we won't talk about the gutting and stringing up... cool? cool!

I also had a very rude awakening to the art of horseback riding--bareback. I'm not so sure if I am "de-sensitized enough to my own feelings" to share that story just yet. =)

Wow... time flies

I signed on to blogger and noticed I completely missed the whole month of December! Wow... well, a lot has been going on. I trust everyone had wonderful holidays with their family and friends. My Christmas was definitely very different this year. I stayed here in Texas, so wasn't around any immediate family, but did have a couple relatives to hang out with for a little while.

Well, this guy Jason who was supposedly madly in love with me and wanted to get married when I moved down here is completely out of the picture now. Good thing he was only a little part of the reason for my move! But I've been making lots of new friends and having a good time. Yeah, it was a little disappointing, but God gives grace, ya' deal with it, and move on, right?

Anyhow, a week before Christmas (without going into much detail), I had a little incident that set me back pretty good. But I managed to pull some overtime (3 fourteen hour days in a row was not fun--don't do it unless you have to!!) and got plenty of babysitting jobs from the doctors I work for, along with the help of some generous people, managed to keep on track.

So I rang in the new year...... babysitting. Yeah, I know---no fun, but that's alright. I guess everyone's already made (and possibly broken!) their new years' resolutions. I kept it simple this year--cutting out soda/coke/pop/whatever you call it, and cutting down on sweets. Yeah, little miss dedicated gym girl that I was hasn't been to the gym since I moved, and my bad eating habits are catching up with me. gotta get that under control!

I haven't had time to do any writing lately, but I kinda miss it, and might try to take a stab at it again soon.

Okay, for all the sports losses and victories and stupid mistakes I have missed talking about, here's my conclusion: Congratulations to South Carolina for finally winning a bowl game! you guys rock! Texas Longhorns get a thumbs up for barely winning a bowl game. Hope your season is a little better next year though guys. Colt McCoy--you're a pretty cool dude. And the Cowboys, my sad, sad Cowboys..... WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, ROMO? Ever since you starting dating Miss American Idol Carrie Underwood, you completely lost your game!! Get your head right, dude! okay, too late now--you already dashed any chances of a championship. All I know is, for next year, you need to learn to put your game face on and focus and forget about your pretty little country blonde for a few hours, okay? And T.O.--it ain't all about you, and that's all I have to say about that.

I feel better now. The rodeo's coming to town in a few weeks. I think I'll go experience a good ole Texas-style rodeo. Should be fun, right? Do I have to get me some tight Wranglers, a bit ole hat, a flashy belt-buckle, and some cowboy boots to go to this? Some of my fellow Texans help me out here? If I don't have all that git-up on, will everyone be snubbing there noses and making mean "foreigner" jokes? Just wondering.

Well, my internet is officially fixed, so hopefully I'll be more regular on here. Happy New Year everyone!

Old grumpy man teaches a lesson...

Hello, blog world! Hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and are getting ready for a wonderful Christmas. I love this time of year!

I put up a small tree Friday night, and scattered the few Christmas decorations I have around my small apartment. Put Christmas music on loud and repeating in my 5-CD changer and got into the spirit of things.

Next, I'm going to bake a butt-load of cookies and take them around to friends and family.

Today, one of my 88 year old patients that I've been going back and forth with about his bill for about 3 weeks came into the office. After he saw the doctor, I had to sit him down in my office to go over his bill step by step, very slowly and clearly for the 5th time. After he seemed to finally understand, he started talking about his life and different things he had gone through, and how now all he does is go to bed every night and pray that he will not wake up the next morning. His wife is dead; his dog is dead; he can't work or use his hands anymore. It was sad. I think I'll take him some cookies and share the hope of Christmas with him. It kind of helped to adjust my perspective a bit.

Anyways, don't get so lost in all the fast-paced shopping and social events that you lose your perspective of Christmas.

Don't save all the love for Christmas day.... show someone today how good God is to you!

Football blues!

Pretty depressing South Carolina and Texas games this weekend, huh? I sure hope Colt McCoy is back in shape for next week's game. And what was up with all of SC's kicks being batted down? uhh.. Well, next week's Ohio vs. Michigan should be really interesting!

My Ingredients

I am a vast field of disappointments;
a single bud of hopes.
I am a handful of accomplishments;
a bucket full of failures.
I am a river made from tears;
a puddle made from laughs.
I am a page written with quirks;
a sentence written with grace.
I am a heart bursting with dreams;
a head of stifling excuses.
I am a line of a happy melody;
a story of a melancholy ballad.

Dahlia's wedding

Well, I flew back to South Carolina real quick for my friends Dahlia and Jorge's wedding. It was beautiful.

Sad News

Please pray for the family and friends of Rick Daniel, a former coworker and friend of mine who passed away suddenly yesterday from a heart attack. I'm completely shocked by this news and feel so far away and unable to help. I know his wife and two daughters would appreciate the prayers.

Thanks

Finally!

Well, a cold front is coming through, and it's starting to feel a little like fall around here.

I learned something tonight... no matter how dedicated a person used to be to exercising, when they quit, it's really tough to start again. yes, yes... I'm talking about myself--miss 24/7 dedicated gym girl who loved to work out and exercise. Well, since my gym membership expired back in March, I haven't really done much in the line of exercise other than playing a few sports here and there. Well, tonight it was really nice out so I decided to go running. Yeah, right... totally out of shape. I'm going to have to get it back in gear, because exersing and staying fit is not something I want to lose. I'll let ya' know how it goes.

In other news, I have my official Texas drivers license now, and I finally found an insurance company who would cover me in spite of all my wrecks (even though it's gonna break the bank to pay them!), so I believe all the issues of moving are officially completed, and I'm good to go for a while. I've also found a great church with some great people that I've really been enjoying.

Talk to ya soon!

Peek-a-Boo!

I see you! I have come out of hiding for a second! Ha ha

The seasons are trying to change, and of course along come all the nasty allergies. Sneezing, coughing, watering eyes, etc have pretty much been what my weekend consisted of. I can't wait for the cooler temperatures though!

I'm sorry I don't keep this blog up like I used to. It's just that I am not allowed to be online at my job, and then there's just so much to get done in the evenings, and I don't feel like getting on the computer after being on it all day. I do check my email, and I'm sorry that I don't respond all the time. But I am alive and well; things are going well. I just need to figure out when and how I'm going to fit blogging back into my life.

I really do appreciate all my blogging buddies... you guys have been more encouraging than you know.

So, who wants to set up a budget for my time and fit blogging in there for me??

Hunkee-Doree

Everything's just rolling right along. One of our doctors died mysteriously in his car on the way to work Friday. Then, this morning I received a couple death threats from patients. Just a normal morning right?

This job is getting really interesting.

Overheard

"So, I switched my alarm clock to come on to a different radio station. This morning, to wake me up, comes blaring across my radio, 'I pledge allegiance... blah blah blah'. I mean, how annoying can you get? A bunch a kids rambling off that old-fashioned stuff. Do kids even say that garbage any more? How annoying! You can bet I'll be switching the station again tonight!"

Excuse Me???? It took everything in me not to blow my top right there and then. I simply said, "I like hearing the pledge of allegiance, and I don't think it's old fashioned, and if kids are not saying it anymore, than it's a real shame."

Tomorrow, I'm taking a big American flag poster to put up at my desk. Who knows? Maybe I'll stand and salute and say the pledge every hour just to drive home my point. Well, okay.... maybe that wouldn't be the best way to handle it!!!

And to think.... the day after Sept. 11 even! Shameful!

umm... yeah

What a bad football weekend we just had!!! Longhorns, S.C. Gamecocks, the Cowboys..... I mean, even the Houston Texans, all lost!! Oh well, it's early in the season and they still have time to come back and have a good season.

On another note, I'm officially Tex-i-fied now. Got my "Lone Star State" tags! =)

That's all. It's early.... can't believe I'm actually doing this first thing in the morning... What is my problem?

Figuring it all out

Broken promises; empty words
Fell on my ears and
Crushed my heart.

Flicker of truth; glimmer of hope
Cast a light on my soul but
Replaced soon by shadows.

Unfounded faith; misplaced trust
Broke apart my securities and
Tossed them to the waves.

Disillusioned; questioning each decision
Brought complete confusion
To mind, heart, and soul.

Disappointment; people fail
Both a part of life--
Accept, and move on.

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Someone once said "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." My question is this, How many times can one accept and move on, love and lose, before they become completely untrusting, cynical, failure-fearful individuals? Is there ever an end? Is there a time when you should stop, stand, and fight to make a relationship work? Or should you just always accept and move on? Is it worth a fight? Is it worth all the effort? Does the fear of failing ever go away? Does the perfect relationship ever come where both individuals are completely sure that the other will be there until the very end, no matter what? How can anyone be that trusting after going through several break-ups? Do you think that if your security is based upon the other person needing you, that once you don't feel needed, your security will be gone, and then the decay of the relationship begins? I think so. So how do we learn not to place our security in a relationship in the other person? I believe the answer would lie in the concept of knowing the relationship was God's will, and therefore, basing your security in God working everything out. Right? But then, if it doesn't work out, how do you keep yourself from blaming God, and becoming disillusioned with His promises and care over our lives as our Heavenly Father?

Okay, enough questions. I really don't expect anyone to answer them. And please don't read into this.... I'm not breaking up with anyone or blaming God for anything. I'm trying to put myself in someone else's shoes and understand a little of their thought patterns. It's kind of a little hobby of mine--figuring out how other people think. It helps when I try to communicate with them, if I can start where they are. Sometimes I'm way off-base, but hey, it's better to try and lose than never to have...... Just kidding!

It's True!

Yeah, okay. So, everything IS bigger in Texas...





Even the waterbugs/cockroaches/whatever you want to call those nasty brown bugs.




'Nuff said.


If I tell the story I will embarrass myself too much to ever be able to show my face here again!! Use your imagination. Me in the bathroom getting ready for work and a HUGE unexpected visitor.


Anyway, if anyone wants to volunteer to come be my full-time bug patrol, I'm accepting applications!

Who knew?

Why didn't anyone warn me that moving to a new place was so much work?? Shwoooo! Well, I guess it's not so much the moving, but setting up your own place for the first time. I thought that being on my own would give me so much free time to catch up on so much--but it's been quite the opposite so far! But it's been enjoyable. Hopefully things will slow down eventually and I'll be able to catch up with you all. Sorry if I've been neglecting you--nothing personal, I promise! Have a great week. I'll talk to ya soon!

Trip to Texas

I'm sooo ready to be a diehard Longhorns fan!

Here's my lovely Uhaul trailor and Jeep. I had one tire blow out, and was on the side of the road for a couple hours, but it was all good. Just part of the experience!

Yee-haww... they let me in!! I had to stop at the welcome center and get my free "Don't mess with Texas" sticker!

Anyone still out there????

Hello people! I'm back and finally have internet. I'm alive, doing well, and lovin' life in Texas!

Anyhow, I'm gonna post some pictures on here later on, and give some more details of what's going on. Right now, I have to clean this apartment from head to toe and finish unpacking all my junk.

Hope you all are doing well. I'll be checking your blogs soon!

It's time...

Please pray for safety as I travel Thursday and Friday.

Lord willing, my next post will be from Texas!

Thanks! Y'all are the best! =)